This is a sappy post, so feel free to not read it and skip to only the pictures. I’ve been having a bit of a rough go lately, and needed to get something to my grandfather before he passes on quite suddenly. Thanks for putting up with me using this blog as a means of getting a letter around the world that wouldn’t have made it if I had sent it by mail.
I know you don’t have much time left, mere hours probably. You have no idea how much I wish I were there. I wish that I had seen you more frequently than a year and a half ago. I wish we had been able to talk more since moving here. I wish we lived on the same continent, because then, I would be there for you.
Although it pains me to not be there, to see everyone there, able to give you one last hug, and you holding on furiously to the iPad, trying to hug me through the screen, I know that me not being there for this doesn’t erase the 23 years of memories we have. Or the special bond that we shared. I know you love each of your grandchildren, but I always felt like you loved me most whenever we would talk — you have such a presence, such a way of being there, caring to the ends of the earth for the person that you are in conversation with. You make me feel loved, even when you’re too sick to even realize it.
I hope I can be as good a parent some day as you have been to all of your children. I hope I can love them all unconditionally, as you do, even when they aren’t doing what you know they should be doing.
I hope I can make you and Grandma proud. I know you’ll always be there for me, even if it’s not immediately apparent.
For years I’ve been trying to get you to come visit me in Paris — this was one of your dreams, to return with Grandma to the place where you had once taken a whirlwind 6 hour taxi tour of the city on a layover between the States and Uganda.
Well, today’s your lucky day. The Husband and I have been running furiously around Paris taking photos — just so you can come back to this magical city and spend a day with me.
I love you. I miss you. I wish we had all the time in the world.
See you on the other side.